Merryagnes

The day is good today. I was able to do some work on my new novel, The Bridge. It’s coming along well. I should be publishing it soon.

As I sit here at my desk, I’m plagued with thoughts that want me to do things, go somewhere online or make something on the stove.

I used to be happy in my life, but perhaps did not know it until after I’d gone through my years in college. I had my happiest times in High School, where I was with my group of friends who met every afternoon at the library to do homework. We’d do our work while chattingContinue reading

This weekend I suffered bad thoughts again. It was intolerable. But I survived. Last night was not that difficult a time. In the morning I had a bad dream of something like a big crash in the house somewhere. I had a terror-like feeling in my chest. I got out of bed and looked intoContinue reading

I figured it out. The evil thoughts come after me after I’ve written a chapter of a book I’m writing, and they come out in droves after I’ve published my work. I suffer all day after this happens. It’s not a coincidence. It really happens to me.

I had the vaccine the day before yesterday. Yesterday I felt awful. It was so awful that I tried to distract myself, take meds for pain, eat something and have broth as well. I felt a little more like the thing then I felt a real need to go a sleep. I slept for severalContinue reading

I was sad all day today. And nervous. I felt like I couldn’t get out of bed for very long. I tried several times to get up and do something but the negativity I met out in the living areas was too much to bear. i slept more and then finally got out at theContinue reading

One of the people I asked to read and review my book LR finally gave her review. She had a difficult time reading it and she thought that the plot was somewhat confused and said she had to read it over again and made notes of the characters to see how the book would goContinue reading

I am sliced as I sit with a cig in front of the computer. I see this feeling as a thought and I’m naming that thought Laura. I have other feelings that happen to me in my body that she has made me feel like a kick on the shin, a shove, a flexing inwardsContinue reading

As a writer, and author, I am a secretive person. I don’t like to tell people what I’m working on. I do like to send out emails to some of my followers about what I’m doing in terms of writing. But they don’t know all the details. I know some of those who receive myContinue reading