Author Archives: Merryagnes

Today I feel sad. I don’t know why. I am afraid. Fear thoughts crowd me. They hide under my skirt. They make it difficult for me to function, to move, to act or make a decision. I dither. It’s terribly sad-making. I can’t get these thoughts to move out of my head. I have toContinue reading

Yesterday afternoon I had a job interview with someone in a regulatory field where they were looking for help in their business. I wasn’t sure that I wanted to have a full-time job and asked her if they might make this position a part-time job. She said no. So we didn’t have much else toContinue reading

The bad elohim is striking again at my stuff while I take my morning coffee. I’m persuaded by these thoughts to go and return to my bed and sleep, where they’ll kill me. I’ve had this happen several times in the last few days and so I sleep. But I arise feeling more the thing,Continue reading

I’ve been reading a book, titled Detox Your Thoughts, and it’s been helping. It’s got a good explanation of how thoughts can make you feel stress, pain and sadness. It’s got a good quote about not letting thoughts have power over you. I think that’s good to think about and use whenever these bad elohimContinue reading

I’m dying while I listen to the morning news on television. I’ve tried everything to keep from dying. The bad elohim is eager to kill me. They are the people who killed Jesus and now they think Jesus is somewhere in me, as a Spirit, which He is. I used to follow Jesus and publishedContinue reading

As Queen of England in Exile in the USA, I’ve had a terrible life here. Many people don’t care for the English in the USA. Those who knew I was English, despite having parents who looked Asian, ignored me, made it difficult for me to enter medical school, and thwarted any romantic alliances I mightContinue reading

I’ve had a difficult morning so far. But it’s par for the course. These gremlins insist on following me all over the place in my head. But I’ve done a bit of writing on writing dot com. I wrote a few more paragraphs to my story Mollie’s Dilemma. It’s a cautionary tale. I don’t thinkContinue reading

The first day of Freedom from selling Mary Kay went well enough but I now have suffered sadness through negative thoughts. I went along with a few thoughts about some people in the past that I knew. Suddenly, I felt awful. I was so sad that I went back to my room and slept itContinue reading