Focus

I’m trying my best to focus on one thing: to gain weight so I can reach 115 pounds. I’m being challenged by the kitchen because they have a problem cooking food for me. I’m supposed to have my meats ground with sauce on top. They haven’t done that before yesterday. I’ve spoken to the dietary person about how I want my meats cooked and last night they finally got it right. In the meantime my weight has stalled. I’m currently at 106.2 pounds.

Today is another day. Breakfast was a bit less than usual. The scrambled eggs were mushy in texture. They added too much water to the egg mixture. I didn’t eat it all.

I know that the more I think something is off with the food, I have a problem eating it. My work to eat food has to take precedence. But something in me balks at eating if the food is hard to eat or swallow.

Consequently I’m anxious before a meal because I’m worried that it might be hard to eat.

As a result, I take a shake for break. It’s one way I can add calories to my diet.