I was sad all day today. And nervous. I felt like I couldn’t get out of bed for very long. I tried several times to get up and do something but the negativity I met out in the living areas was too much to bear. i slept more and then finally got out at the same time my Stepfather was going to run errands. I do not know how long this negativity will last. I am not happy that I’m going through this day after day and in increasing amounts of sadness and bad thoughts. I’m giving up writing because of this. I cannot call up the happy experiences I have had in writing my novels and other books. I hope someday I can get that back, but the hopelessness of this is making me sad too. I am hoping still that one day soon I’ll be delivered from this negativity, that the skies will open up and allow me a good day for the rest of my Life.