I’ve been reading a book, titled Detox Your Thoughts, and it’s been helping. It’s got a good explanation of how thoughts can make you feel stress, pain and sadness. It’s got a good quote about not letting thoughts have power over you. I think that’s good to think about and use whenever these bad elohim thoughts get to me.

I’ve been so sad this morning that I took to my bed after I was up earlier today. I felt so sad and pained that I had no other way to go but to sleep it off, just to avoid feeling this pain. I got through the process of this hateful experience and got out of bed just in time to eat lunch.

It’s good that I have a good appetite. Being healthy is a good thing to keep off these thoughts that are making me sad. I do more for my health than anyone I know does. I’m praying too, so that My God will continue to keep me alive despite all the negativity. I’ve been driven to feel as though I’ll never see My Family again and that I’ll perish someday soon. This kind of thought has been part of the torture that I’ve received.

I’m trying to work on my anthology and my novel in the times when I feel it’s safe to do them, but those bad elohim thoughts can’t stand it. They find out and then they come after me.

I have a theory that NOAA is filled with such negativity that it rains down on my stuff and it causes a great deal of sadness in me. And causes pain, stress and muscle aches. I’m already taking pain meds for this, and I’m also taking an anti-depressant. Without these I’d be sunk.